This is somewhat of a follow up to both my blog about
dangerous gods and about the nature of offerings when a war goddess is
concerned. Something that Morgan Daimler
said has stuck with me and inspired a lot of good conversations with other
Morrigan devotees.
"You know when my dad came back from Vietnam, when he
got off the plane, people in the airport spit on him. This makes me think of
that. We are spitting on our war gods because we are mistaking them for the
gory collateral damage of war that we abhor. But they are not that. They are
the spirit to fight and win and defend the things that matter. They are the
spirit of battle that makes anything in life worth fighting for. And I think
its dangerous to forget that, and very dangerous to disrespect them. They protect us, and we need them, just
as we need soldiers whether we want to admit it or not.”
– Morgan Daimler
When I first started working with the Morrigan she only
showed me her harshest aspects. And really I needed them at the time. It was a long time before I understood that
she was more than a goddess of war. She
is a shapeshifter after all, she has many aspects and guises and often takes
the exact form needed to achieve her goals or those of the Irish gods. For a long time her connection with war made
many Pagans uneasy about working with her.
Saying that you were a devotee to the Morrigan in a circle was like
saying your patron goddess was Voldemort.
Over the last couple of years that has changed. But what I wonder is whether or not we have
gone to the other extreme? Have we forgotten she is a goddess of war? Have we reshaped our idea of the “war” she
rules over to better fit our morals and comfort zones? Have we declawed our war gods? Not just the
Morrigan, but all of them. Have we made
them toothless lions? Connected to the war of bygone days and movies, and not
actual war, right here, right now, in modern times?
Honestly I think we have.
In my opinion the nature of the gods remains the same despite
what we would like them to be, but ignoring a vital part of a deity’s nature is
never a good idea. Realistically most of
us will never be a part of actual physical warfare unless you are in the
military. And I am grateful for that,
and I am also grateful for all the men and women in uniform who risk their lives
to protect myself and everyone in this country.
But I can not forget that in other countries war is very real thing to
everyday people. It still doesn’t make
modern warfare extinct simply because I am not a part of it. And I can not see the Morrigan hanging up her
“war goddess hat” and saying “Well it was a good run with the spear and sword,
this modern warfare I’ll just leave for someone else to carry on with!” While they are in the minority I do know, and have come across in my travels, several Morrigan devotees in the military who do pray to her in the context of going to face actual warfare and ask for protection when they go on tour.
We don’t really like the idea of violence, and so we try to divorce
our gods from any connections to it. As
so called nature worshipers you’d think we would pay a little more attention to
how inherently violence nature is.
Volcanos erupting, lions eating zebras.
All of this creates balance, but a lot of it is through fire and blood.
Part of the issue is that most of us work with the Morrigan
in the context of conquering personal battles.
The majority of my own work with her has been just that, and she is
quite good at it. But that does not
negate her connection to other types of battles.
Perhaps we need to look at "war" a little differently. Really think about why we connect that word
to Her. Because with gods we are talking
about vast and powerful beings and it really is hard to describe all that they
are, and all that they encompass into tiny mortal words. In the end I think if we really distill the
essence of what the Morrigan rules over (and I cringe to nail her down to just
one thing) it is conflict. She rules
over conflict of all kinds. And I think
this makes her fluid nature easier to understand than quibbling over what the
term “war goddess” really means. If we
think of her ruling over conflict of all kinds it makes sense that she can both
rule over a physical battlefield and internal conflict at the same time. I don’t think she really cares whether or not
the battle is a literal one or one where you face your own demons. Both have costs and casualties, and real or metaphorical
blood will probably be spilt in either case. And in either case she goads us onward, she
reminds us what is worth fighting for, and that peace has a price to it.
We need our war gods, whether we like all of the things they
represent or not. I would rather see all
of their harsh beauty, in all its cold hard reality, then turning them into
something more pleasing to my modern eyes.
Conflict is an excellent word, thank you. I've been summarizing my (admittedly limited) understanding of Her as a goddess of Passions - including both Fury and Lust. But that doesn't address Her more deliberate aspects, and the Conflict term does.
ReplyDeleteIt's a rare god whose domain contains only one thing, but sometimes having summaries helps us focus our work.
--Ember--